“Only the mediocre are always at their best.”
I really could have used this quote before today’s wod had started. Let’s go through a virtual tour of my morning…
Woke up. Drank my usual 2.5 cups of black coffee and headed off to the den. Knowing that the wod had muscle ups in it, I was pretty excited; I feel like I’ve been killing muscle ups the last few days and have finally gotten into the swing of things (literally) with them.
After warming up, I looked up at the rings and immediately got nervous. I looked down and my hands were literally shaking. Why was I so nervous?! I always get nervous before every wod, but usually nothing quite like this. Muscle ups have made me sweat, bleed, cry, throw things, punch things… you name it. Doing them last week and having them FINALLY feel like they don’t suck so much was a huge accomplishment. I grabbed onto the rings. By the way, I don’t do false grip. I hate it. It’s uncomfortable and impossible to hold onto when doing multiple reps. So I go with the no false grip. I grabbed the rings, swung my legs, got to the top, and slammed back down. I was kind of expecting that. When this happened 6, 7, and then 10 more times, I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown. The wod was about to start and I still didn’t know what it “felt like” to get up there. During the wod, I still couldn’t even do one muscle up. It took an entire hour and a half for me to get three.
What’s the point of that story? As the quote says, you can not and will not be at your best every single day. If you are, that is a clear indication that you are not taking risks in your training and you are not trying to better yourself… you’re intentionally remaining stuck in your comfort zone. My coach actually asked me to leave this morning because he could tell that I was getting so incredibly angry. And, let me tell you, trying to do something as difficult as a muscle up while frustrated and angry doesn’t turn out well. It leaves you with a failed muscle up and a whole lot of your pride ripped away.
20 MINUTE AMRAP
2 bar/ring muscle ups
10 KB swings (70/53)
100m farmer’s carry/front rack/overhead walk
The first 10 minutes I did farmer’s carry with 53 pound kettlebells. That shit burned and killed my shoulders, which made muscle ups really painful. The last 10 minutes I did a front rack walk with 95 pounds, which also sucked….. my shoulders have been taking an absolute beating in the last week.
After the wod was over, I didn’t want to talk to anyone. I pretty much just shut down and sat on a box outside and faked a few smiles to people walking in. I have never been the type of person who is able to be so accepting of failure and today was no different. It is still in my head and probably will continue to be in my head until the next time I do muscle ups with more ease. Here’s my mentality wod for myself today:
10 MINUTE AMRAP
-see it as another day of practice
-shake it off
-carry on with my day
There you have it folks. It’s okay to have days where you feel like you just completely suck. So you put yourself out there and sometimes shit doesn’t work the way you want it to. Sometimes it takes falling on your ass a hundred times to land on your feet once. Patience is a virtue….