Holy crap has it been a crappy week. I don’t exactly want to put into words how crappy it is, because I can guarantee that there will be a lot of profanity and anger… so let’s just leave it at, “This week totally sucked.” Let me tell you why. My stomach/throat/head have all been bothering me, so keeping anything down besides coffee (with cream of course, hehe…) has been difficult. Because of that, I feel super slow, sluggish, lethargic, the whole 9 yards. On top of that, I’ve had 4 exams to study for. All of which I’ve gotten my lowest grades in Kayla Perry history on. I decided to take Monday and Tuesday off to see if I’d feel any better. I didn’t. But, I went to workout Wednesday morning anyway…. and completely tweaked my neck. A shooting pain up and down my neck and that first 24 hours left me in tears at least 4 different times. So, I’ve been doing some serious mashing with a lacrosse ball, putting heat/ice on it, stretching, and resting… and taking muscle relaxers, because those helped a TON last time this happened. Blah Blah Blah, I know some people have a problem with taking stuff like that…. but it’s so insanely tense in my neck that the muscle relaxers allow it some tension reduction and in turn help with the pain. Today I thought I was going to go absolutely crazy, so I tested out some pretty standard movements to see if they hurt. They didn’t hurt! So, here’s my short workout for today:
TABATA: 20 seconds of work, 10 seconds of rest, for 8 intervals (4 Minutes) *NO REST IN BETWEEN MOVEMENTS.
MOBILITY: 30 MINUTES
So, my exams are over, and I can’t lie, my ego has taken a little bit of a hit. Working out is usually my fall back when every other aspect of my life seems to be going not quite as planned, but now even working out isn’t exactly an option. It’s not an option for a couple reasons: firstly, I’m injured, so I’m limited with what I can do right now. Secondly, even if I wasn’t injured, I’ve been feeling really burnt out in the last couple weeks. I’m not excited about working out, the barbell seems like a big heavy asshole, and I’m just sick of putting so much pressure on myself to improve. It’s really hard to improve in my setting/under my circumstances, and I told myself several times that the next 20-something days until I’m back home will be about maintenance, not necessarily about seeing any gains. However, it’s so much easier said than done. I’m an obsessive perfectionist, so not having things go my way (in terms of training and school) makes me VERY unhappy…. and very stressed. That’s all a part of life, though. Nothing goes as planned, and you have to be ready for when your “life plan” picks you up and throws you like a frisbee in the complete opposite direction. But you know what, as cliche as it sounds, what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. Did this year kill me? No. It didn’t. I’ve had my fair share of breakdowns throughout the year because it has probably been one of the toughest in my life… but it didn’t kill me. I’m struggling a bit now, but as soon as it’s all over, I know for a fact I’ll be able to look back and say, “If I can do THAT, I can do ANYTHING.” Just because one tire is flat doesn’t mean you have to slash the other three. Do what you can, to the best of your ability.